Having a tough time again this year, when the most beautiful email arrived in my inbox. The incredible minister at my parent’s church in Fenelon Falls (and having just recently baptized Jayden there, it now feels like OUR church too) sent this prayer, just for me and for our family.
So, I wanted to share her email so that anyone else there who is struggling will feel the strength of these words, know this prayer is also for them and find comfort in knowing they are not alone.
Heather,
I am just going to speak plainly here; your mom mentioned to me that you are having a tough time these days.
The last time we spoke you told me that you were feeling apprehensive about Christmas coming. I just want you to know that I will be praying for you, that in the tension between what should be, and what is, there might be a bit of peace and rest for you. I don’t know what it’s like to lose a child, but I am not expecting that you would ever “get over it”; so what I pray for is that the loss of Zackary will not hurt as much as time goes on.
I will pray that there will be moments of joy and peace for you and Paul and your beautiful Ty and Jayden.
I think you are an extraordinary woman and I hope your trip to New York with Paul restores your spirits.
Many thanks for your witness and your grace in the midst of grief.
May God bless you and keep you.
Susan
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| The Reverend Susan Spicer and Jayden at his Baptism |
Thank you Susan. Merry Christmas to you xo
Brandee H
January 18, 2015 at 11:17 pm (9 years ago)That is a beautifully witten email. I especially like how she acknowledges that she doesnt know how it feels to lose a child, as I do not as well. I hope it has helped bring you some peace! I wise froend told me when my mom died that the pain never goes away but instead you learn how to deal with it in a way that is socially acceptable. I think it applies to many forms of loss, that pain doesnt disappear it instead changes (transforms) us. I hope 2015 brings you more happy moments than sad 🙂