I never want to forget the signs around me. It’s when I need them most and when I ask Zack for them, that they have been revealed to me. I write them here to preserve my memory, to share with all of you who may need to believe that signs exist, and to make it […] Read more…
Another year goes by and the Christmas tree is up. So is our new Elmo decoration. The lights are twinkling, the carols are playing, the ornaments tell a story of our life and there are several branches adorned with Elmos for Zack. And yet, I just can’t find that spirit again this year. It’s been […] Read more…
Last night, we started to decorate for fall and Halloween – my dislike for gravestones on a front lawn is no surprise– but Jayden looked through a few decorations and lost it. When I asked him what upset him so much, it was the gravestone decoration that we had from years ago- the one I […] Read more…
I’m a hugger. It’s just who I am, and if I’m being honest, I’m kind of known for being a good one! If I look back on the last few years, there are certainly hugs that I will never forget….this story is about one of those. While some other moms might be choosing to share […] Read more…
You’ve been following our journey as SickKids ambassadors and now the time has come to get fundraising for the upcoming 20km Great Camp Adventure on September 28th. Along side other incredible families who we have met along the way, Paul, Ty, Jayden and I will be walking for Zackie and working towards our fundraising goal […] Read more…
One of the most vivid memories that I have of our family is when the 5 of us when to see the Shrine Circus exactly 3 years ago. We were so excited to let the three boys have this incredible experience under the big top! Since the Shriners are huge supporters of children’s charities, we were happy […] Read more…
As many of you know, Zack and I were asked to be SickKids ambassadors (read Zack’s story on their site) over 3 years ago- we were asked to speak at events with Zack by my side, participate in commercials promoting the lottery, fly to the North Pole to meet Santa and attend cool events helping the […] Read more…
I’ve been around babies since Zack died. I’ve seen them, they’ve come to my house and I’ve even attended baby showers.All of those situations have been very hard for me.The truth is that I have had such a difficult time with anything baby since Zack’s been gone. Not only because I’ve lost a child, but […] Read more…
Yesterday, at a lunch with my contact at the York Central (Mackenzie Health) Foundation, I heard sad news of their plans to move the pediatric unit, only months after we celebrated the recognition and not even 6 months after the rooms were all painted. It turns out that with more babies being born at our […] Read more…
Zack’s room was the place where he and I would rock the night away. The place where I tried to get a few minutes of sleep between humming the Elmo song, during his 2am episodes.It’s the place where he would sit in his bouncing chair and get his meds and his gtube feed each night […] Read more…